Today's theme song!

i sooooooooo take back my "everygirl" title. i tried it for a couple of days, and you know it's not for me. i'm not everygirl, because i will NEVER EVER AGAIN have sex just for the sake of having sex. it's got to be fun and playful and cerebral! ...and the night under the trees in the state park -- that wrocked! too bad he didn't!

what the fuck happened between chris and me!?

thanks for everything, baby! i don't know how i would have gotten through it without you.

where the fuck are the fags who aren't looking just to get their rocks off with anyfuckingrandomsoul!? has anyone else noticed that all the "good" fags are either fugly or frigid?? ...and don't go thinking that just because you're frigid that you're one of the "good" ones!

is it too fucking much to expect someone to think about me for at least 5 fucking minutes a day???

I've soooooooo become Everygirl! Jule, you got to help me, baby! =Þ

Happy Birthday, old man. Happy Birthday, Sara!

I'm playing around here because I have no life...not the life I want anyway. Jule and I were supposed to do stuff this weekend, but I kept putting it off and putting it off until she dissed me! I've got to be the most boring asshole in the world sometimes. They keep telling me that life is what you make it, and I'm trying to learn that and make it my way of life. Wish me well!

billie jean had four kittens yesterday. here are some pics!

"it goes like this -- if it ain't about havin a real good time it aint about NOTHIN -- life is too short to fake or be anal with the stuff that should be a fuckin good time" beth hart

Sign my new guestbook!

If dreams give you power, then I'm strong enough to offer my heart and never give up 'til you love me!

i'm amazed! i sent my application to osu just to see what would transfer from my past college career. i have 192 credit hours of which 172 will transfer to osu. why the fuck don't i have my ba yet? ...cuz i spent too much time changing my mind about a major and too much time on courses that i just wanted to take even though they had nothing to do with my major course of study! go me! my school required at least 180 credit hours be earned before a ba was awarded. looking over my transcript, i've found a couple of surprises. i got an a in a class that i didn't attend after like the second week! (seriously.) and i got got credit for another class that i didn't do a paper (major requirement for the course) for, but this time i only got a c. =( i fecking wrock! hope (with me) that next year at this time, i'm in grad school!

if there's a decent daddy out there who wants to adopt me for the next couple o' years, i'm game AND i'm a good boy! =) email me!

changes!!!

"happy phantom" by tori amos

and if i die today, i'l be the happy phantom
and i'll go chasin' the nuns out in the yard
and i'll run naked through the streets without my mask on
and i will never need umbrellas in the rain
i'll wake up in strawberry fields everyday
and the atrocities of school i can forgive
the happy phantom has no right to bitch
oo who the time is getting closer
oo who time to be a ghost
oo who everyday we're getting closer
the sun is getting dim
will we pay for who we been
so if i die today i'll be the happy phantom and i'll go wearin' my naughties like a jewel
they'll be my ticket to the universal opera
there's judy garland taking buddha by the hand
and then these seven little men get up to dance
they say confucius does his crossword with a pen
i'lm still the angel to a girl who hates to sin
or will i see you dear and wish i could come back
you found a girl that you could truly love again
will you still call for me when she falls asleep
or do we soon forget the things we cannot see?

i'm grateful as fuck that it's friday and i don't have to go to work for two whole days! have i told you lately how much work sucks?

oh... and while i'm thinking about it: what the fuck's up with all these closed-minded faggots? i'd think that we'd be some of the most open-minded people in the world! but so many are afraid just to break away from the fag norm and do something different than all our queer uncles have done. i'd like to thank you, baby, for trying new things with me! ;-)

here's my guestbook: =) sign it!

i hate my life! here's why: 1. i hate my fucking job! yeah, i know the drill. why stay? i stay because there's no way i could find a job that's meaningful. i'd probably just keep going in the same capacity i'm dealing with now. so what's the fucking point in investing the energy in meeting a bunch of new people and learning a new company and a new culture? there is none! and why the fuck do we work 40 hours a week? that's too goddamned much of my time! (not that i have much else to do.) 2. i can find no meaning! ...and i've been searching for almost 26 years! i mean, i could solve all the world's problems and i could live happily ever after, but then what? i'll just fucking die! 3. too many people suck ass! i realize that sounds like a poor attitude, and YEAH, i own one of those. but it's how i feel! ...and besides, if you're reading this you probably don't suck that much ass. have you ever noticed how many people are in it all for themselves? i mean, for the most part people just deal with other people to get something. too many selfish fucks! i'll admit that i do it, but at least im conscious of it. RANT: i hate it when dumbasses rant about what's wrong with the world but they cannot -- for the life of them -- see their own motherfucking problems! i've known quite a few motherfuckers who get off on criticizing other people, but they sooo don't see what losers they are! my advice: look in the mirror, asshole, and when you're a little less of an asshole, then you MIGHT begin to tell me how to live my life!

and i soooo got to give some bitches a grammar/spelling lesson: adding an apostrophe and an 's' to a word does not make the word plural (more than one); it makes the word possessive (owns something else)! for example, if you're talking about more than one dumbass, it's dumbasses. ...maybe that's a bad example because you have to add 'es' to form a plural. too confusing, i'm sure. okay.... ideas. your IDEAS are stupid. NOT your IDEA'S are stupid. ...the latter would make me ask, "your idea's what?" and FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, learn the difference between your and you're! the apostrophe in the case of contractions (usually) signifies that there are some missing letters. k: in the case of, "you're a freak," the apostrophe stands for the missing 'a' in are. if you weren't using the contraction, you'd say "you are," right? =) just think about it. i know you can do it, honey!

(much love to my bitches!)

sarah: i could never call you my bitch, so i'll have to say something unique for you. =) love you, babe!

renaldo was over earlier without the bitch hanging on. says she's going to head out to oregon with her mom soon as the summer's over. i'll believe that one when i fucking see it! motherfucker doesn't know what he could have had!

jule is so fucking naive. she believes anything i say!!!!

what a shot or two of tequila can do for a girl in a bad mood!

i am so fucking pissed right now! i don't have shit to do at work and here i sit, fucking playing on the internet. i asked for a fucking vacation day tomorrow, and i just can't have it because we have two other motherfucking people off. BUT i can come in tomorrow and if it's slow (which it has been for the past fucking decade) i can leave early...that is after i've crossed the red fucking sea to get here. i hate reporting to dumb ass bullshitters who don't know their ass from a hole in the ground!

i suddenly feel better. =)

from "caught a lite sneeze" by Tori

boys on my left side
boys on my right side
boys in the middle
and you're not here....

i'd like to send one shout out to my girl, kristin. it's been too long, babe!

me too, grrl. me too!

"the fragile" by NIN

she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everything is meaningless

fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
i can't watch her slip away

i won't let you fall apart

she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
hoping someone can see
if i could fix it myself i'd--
but it's too late for me

i won't let you fall apart

we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking...

it's something i have to do
i was there, too
before everything else

i was like you

my priceless advice for the day: don't use bath and body works anti-bacterial hand gel as lube. bitch burns!!!